Ladies and gents this is a very important post and may be the end of you being a fan of The Goat Franchise or just the begening of a new understanding of what you have been dealing with over the past year.
My name is Jake and I stand before ALL of you and announce things that have been hidden under the surface from the public eye and that I am going to shed some light on today.
I AM A MANIC DEPRESSANT WITH SUICIDAL TENDENCIES!!!
Notice how all of that is in capitol letters? I have been fighting depression my entire life and I have refused to take medication my entire life, Until recently I lived in a very depressed world with stretches of normal thought process. And I stand by the resoning that I did not take medication because I did not want to alter my view on things my vision and my out of the box thinking which has offered us some very interesting books in the future and well..... The Pitchfork Diaries.
I am INSANE and also until recently out of work for the very first time in my life which also led to no medication. I have been taking medication for months now and it has zero effect on my writing , thankfully I can tap into my depression even when I am on the meds. However now that the meds are in my systemn when I do not have them I fall apart. And over the last month I did not just fall apart I fell apart in public.
I set myself on fire and announced to the world with un abashed vigor that I wanted to be dead and that I wanted to set everyone I knew on fire and watch them burn as i bled to death from self inflicted wounds.
IT WAS HOW I FELT, suicide is a very real demon i face and i face it daily.
I in the last month have lost everyone who has been an amazing part of this journey. What many of you do not know is that behind the scenes there were 3 amazing women running this entire thing AND at the same time putting up with me, Trying to keep me from commiting not just suicide but career suicide and thay will always be the origional foundation of what The Goat Franchise will grow to be. I LOVE all of them and I want to state here publicly that I WAS WRONG and that I AM FOREVER SORRY.
I also want to state this in public.
I am the author of The Pitchfork Diaries and The Harvest HOWEVER each of the memebers of TGF contributed in editing in sharpening ideas maning the book better. I write vomit this is stated all over my interviews I take very small amount of credit for the books I have written because without the girls the books would not have been the same.
The parties involved with not to be named in association with me or TGF but let me assure you they are amazing talents 2 of them well known authors and one of them a fantastic social media promotions whiz.
I will not speak in a negative light about any of them and I wish them all much success.
SO WHAT NOW JAKE THE SUICIDAL MANIAC?
Well trutch be known nothing at this point has changed much except I do not have anoyone helping me.
The Harvest is still on schedule for release on Christmas day on ALL of the same retailers as Pitchfork like Amazon,Barnes and Nobles and iBoooks etc.
LASTLY for now.
It was an accusation thrown at me when everyone left that I used CANCER (which I have btw) to gain money for myself...... THIS IS AN ABOSLUTE LIE!!!!
I have never and would never use this to gain money and whomever would ever think of such garbage is not associated with me and would never be.
I am sick and on Methotrexate, Pregnazone and Humera to deal with the issues of my disease and if I have to come out and say I am sick I have cancer to stand up in front of everyone to show I want to help I AM DOING IT!!! Gain money for myself? What money we have not mader any money !!!
The Pitchfork Diaries have not generated enough money at this time to pay my cell phone bill lolol
So let it be known in power point form
THE GOAT FRANCHISE IS ALIVE
I AM ETERNALY GREATFUL FOR THE GOAT GALS
I AM A SUICIDAL MANIAC
I AM NOT USING CANCER TO MAKE MONEY
THE HARVEST COMES OUT DEC 25TH
NOW HIRING!!!!!!!
I'm proud of you Jake! You're a good egg, with much to offer the world - and you know it!! :)
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